Hey long time no see. Long time I didnt tell story of my life hihi
In weekdays Iam so busy. Should get up earlier than 6 month before, then come back to house at 8.00 pm.
Maybe some people who knows my salary, will say "you deserve get the other jobs" or "you're salary not match with your struggle".
But... this is life. so hard, isnt it?
Since I become adult, I really believe achievements will comes to me if I struggling as much as I can do.
No happiness without struggling, or the other quote say "there will always a rainbow after the rain."
My parent agreed with my decision to accept this job.
They want me to be

Finally I can feel the happiness moment when I got my first salary, with all of struggle in 1 month.
In the beginning, my legs swollen caused standing for some hours in the bus everyday.
I got a sick, "masuk angin" caused I always come back to home lately. I prefer to choose did a "sholat maghrib" then I go home.
The day after I got my salary, I and my parents went to the restaurant, had a lunch together hihi. Bought a new glasses for me. Left some rupiahs for infaq 2,5%. I brought some j-co for my parents in law (candidate) ehehe. This life feels so wonderful when I can share my salary with the people who I love.

Dear God, thanks for everything. You always listen my prays.
May I can make my parents happy with my jobs. Not only cause my salary, but also my attitude become more mature, and.. get a marriage early ehehe :D

Kamu tahu, jalan hidupku berbeda dengan teman-teman yang lainnya. Mereka sama-sama S1, Teknik Metalurgi dan Material UI juga tapi salary mereka jauuh dari rezeki yang aku dapatkan.
Ada yang 5 juta, 7 juta, bahkan 13juta untuk oil and gas. That is the reality for me.
Maybe I stiil someone who isnt qualified yet to get big salary with this tittle.
Tapi ditengah kegalauan tiba-tiba nemu seperti ini.

"Bekerjalah untuk menjadikan dirimu lebih ahli, bukan untuk cari uang. Karena, kalau kamu ahli, kamu akan dibayar mahal. Puluhan juta orang bekerja untuk mencari uang, tapi dapatnya sedikit. Jangan cari uang, itu akibat. Cari keahlian, itu sebab. Orang yang ahli, uangnya banyak."
-- Mario Teguh


That was Your sign, wasnt it?
 Aku hanya perlu sebuah dukungan dari orang-orang terdekat. Mama tampak sekali kekecewaan di wajahnya. Maaf Ma.. Iam really sorry. This is not what I want too Mom..

Tapi aku begitu yakin sekali, akan banyak ilmu yang didapat daripada di rumah untuk 3 bulan ke depan. ya kan? :)
I really believe You are the best architecture for me. Designed the best place, the right time, the right environment, and also  the best struggle within.

Entah apa rencana yang sedang Kau persiapkan ya Allah?
Sungguh banyak sekali ujian yang Kau beri untuk keluargaku di tahun 2013 ini. Baru sampai bulan ke-9 seperti udah ratusan kejadian dan cobaan yang membekas di hati.
Hari ini mendapatkan berita buruk kalau bang Andi kehilangan tas barunya plus berkas-berkas yang ada di dalam tas tsb, mulai dari passpor, sertifikat toefl dsbnya.
Aku begitu yakin kalau dibalik ini semua pasti ada hikmahnya. Tolong terus tingkatkan kualitas keimanan kami sekeluarga ya Rabb..
Kami selalu ber-huznudzhon kepada Mu.

Duhai Rabb Maha Penguasa dan Maha Bijaksana, mudahkanlah jalan kami, anak mama papa. 
Bantu kami meraih cita-cita kami, untuk sebuah pembuktian, untuk meningkatkan derajat keluarga sederhana ini, untuk membungkam mulut mereka para orang jahat. :')

Bang Andi : "seharusnya lo itu udah lebih tough dibandingkan gw. Ibaratnya gw udah tau lah kejam/ngeselein-ngeselinnya orang luar, nah lo lebih tau karakter orang-orang Indonesia cha. Karena udah 6 bulan ini lo ngikutin wawancara. Jadi.. seharusnya lo punya modal tiap saat ikut proses recruitment."

Mama : "Mama sih yakin. Chacha lagi diuji sama Allah. Chacha yang rajin sholat, rajin ngaji, patuh pada Allah, dikasih cobaan seperti ini. Kalo gw kasih cobaan kaya gini lo gimana nih? seperti itu ibaratnya."

Giano : "Aku juga bingung sih kenapa perusahaan itu gak nerima kamu, dengan a whole package kamu yang menurutku udah komplit. Mungkin memang belum waktunya."

Aku : "Sekarang salah kenapa lagi sih? okee emang aku ga persiapin matang buat wawancara user kemarin. terlalu nekat memang dengan bermodal standar. tapi harus usaha seperti apalagi? bahkan sudah mencoba buka bisnis desain logo buat online shop loh. baru dapet 2 costumer. Yang tadinya semangat-lesu-semangat lagi-berapi api-lesu kembali (saat gagal)-semangat-sangaaaat lesu (saat gagal di tahap akhir)-jenuh."

Yah meskipun telat, tapi aku mau ngucapin dulu..

Well.. this was the first lebaran without Pakde :'(
and finally I visited his grave in Menteng Pulo.
There was  something different without him. As usual in the past, after did sholat iedul fitri , we kissed his hand-because he was the oldest person in my house-, forgive each other and eat ketupat together.
ooh.. I miss that moment so much :((
Kemudian lebaran kemarin, Mba Elfa-istri bang agam- sakit tiba2, jadinya rencana awal untuk silahturahmi ke rumah saudara2 jadi gagal deh. Jadinya cuma aku, mama dan papa, karena bang andi juga lagi sakit flu parah.
Lalu hari Sabtunya, aku datang ke rumah giano. Ketemu mama papa dan kedua kakaknya.
Ungkapan "Dont judge a book by it cover" ternyata benar sekali..
Banyak hal yang tak terduga yang beda dengan bayangan. Kemudian pulangnya aku dianterin sama mama papa nya naik mobil, sempet nyasar pula haha :p
In this special, holy moment.. I just want to hope, I become a person who more whole-hearted, thankful to Allah, increase my faith, can give my salary to my parents, and many goodness others.
Amiin Ya Rabbal Alamin.. :D

There is always a reason why Allah make me waiting until this day.
If I were not in this condition, maybe until today I cant be someone who thankful to Allah, with all of His favors that He given to me.
Until this day..
I can breath easily, doesnt need any oxygen or others helping tools,
I can see, feel, smell, hear clearly.
I have many people who loves me, my parent, borthers, sister in law, nephew,boyfriend, and close friends.
I have an Engineer title not only because of my struggle, but also Allah helped me.
and the most important favor is Iam a moslem. 
The only religious that Allah accepted.

"This day have I perfected your religion for you, completed My favour upon you, and have chosen for you Islam as your religion". (Al-Maa'idah 5:3)
"If anyone desires a religion other than Islam (submission to Allah (God) never will It be accepted of Him" ( Al-Imraan 3:85)
"Abraham was not a Jew nor Christian; but an upright Muslim." (Al-Imraan 3:67)
He has commanded that you only worship Him; that is the right religion, but most men do not understand". (Yusuf 12:40)


 to be someone who always thankful to Allah, Iam trying and I will always try to thankful with the small things that I have. If we want change to be a better person, it should have started with the smallest things that we can do. More often we do,we can  changed completely sooner .
"So which of the favors of your Lord would you deny?"