Dear Pah..
At the day you passed away, I cried..not a lot. Maybe because I've cried the days before when I tried to remember all of our memories together.
At the day, I made the condolences news to be forwarded. Registered the cemetery and announced your death to our neighborhood. We were too busy to cried or maybe we pretend to be strong person?
It was too sad, too bitter when our relatives and some friends of me didn't come. Now we know who's care of us and loving us with all of we have.
The days after you died, mom and I always sad and cried when we missed you. Its like we cant breath easily. It broke our heart. My brother and I had trouble of sleeping time, we had insomnia again. It happen to overthinking person, like us. Wondering how month after, year after, what should we do, what will happen after your gone.
There are still many questions that I haven't been asked to you. I want to hear from your mouth, I want to know your old story and especially my childhood story as your latest and the only daughter. My mom said, you were really sure about my gender when I was born and you cried after you seen me. Thanks a lot pah, to believe my existence ❤️
We will take care of mom, me especially. Mom will stay at my home for a few days or I will stay at your home. Sometimes she cried a lot, the other side of her that I didn't see before. We knew both of you always debate or argument fighting for everything, till the days before you died. I am truly grateful it because both of you is loving each other.
Thankfully I've already resigned. Even it so dilemmatic thing, but I really thankful to Allah for good and not so good effect to me. I could take care of you and brought you to the last our vacation. I can stay at your home and accompany my mom because of my free time, like now.
It almost 4 month after your gone, but you came to my dream only once hahaha. I don't know why, because you are too happy to not sick anymore or just to make me a little happy (even you came to me with yours cranky face haha lol) in my random dream. Please come to my dream frequently dad, I missed your face 🥰
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